Grace's Little Saboteur..................and Grace

My Cubicle

2006-11-16T14:36:00.000+11:00

Specially for those of you who feel you're locked up in "jail"...

Dean Geyer - Turn the Beat Around

2006-11-14T13:30:00.000+11:00

Dean Geyer - I'll Be

2006-11-14T13:16:00.000+11:00

Change

2006-11-09T19:16:00.000+11:00

I hate change. Don't really want anything to do with it, but I guess life revolves around it. Maybe it's purpose is to help us learn? grow? change ourselves even? I don't know... whatever the purpose is, I don't like it, especially when it involves people coming in and out of your lives. I have concluded. I need more friends. Finishing up on my undergraduate degree has been really sad change in my life, cos this time people spilt up and go their own ways. It's not a bad thing, in fact it is really good cos we're all moving and improving and becoming the people we want to be. But it is quite sad when you think about all the memories and experiences, was just like yesterday...

I met up with Sin Ning today, a really close friend. And got the news that it is confirmed she will be going to China next year to study language. I always knew she was leaving to China, but it kinda hit me when she said she might be gone for a number of years cos of plans to work and stuff. Babe...if you're reading this, tell you the truth...I wanted to tear...with a lot of tears. I will miss you...loads...

Sin Ning has been one of the very first friends I made back in Trinity days, and it's so amazing to see how far we've come. I'll always remember her borrowing my sandles during orientation camp, and coming up with the idea of how to place the sheets/blankets right so that we would be warm (at that time it didn't seem quite right but it worked out haha). She has probably been through every single nag of all my relationship crisis problems, suffered the pain and torture of my lameness, and 101% disagreed on my preferences/views/ideas/thoughts haha the list goes on. But it was never one bit boring with her around. She was able to put a smile on my face any time, even when she was tired or stressed or feeling down herself. She has been an inspiration in more ways than one...

Time really flies I must say. Never expected to reach my final year so fast, I always thought it would be a drag...but I guess when you're having so much fun, you just don't realize it. Maybe that's why i never did as well with studies, having too much fun playing and skipping classes ahahha (my parents so better not be reading this!). Well, we all made it somehow.

Congradulations to everyone who is reaching the end of their undergraduate life, especially to my friends at Melbourne University. Thanks for standing by me, supporting me, and showing me what I have been missing out in life the most...YOU! :) hehe Well I wish you all well, and until we meet again...TAKE CARE! Love you all!!!

2006-11-08T21:53:00.000+11:00

Dear Dad & Mom,

I wish you well, for this news could tear apart your health.

As you will be wondering, how did I go for my exams today? Well, here's what happened and I pray you'll hold up till the end.

I missed it. But I had good reason you see. First, it was the dumbass daylight savings, no way it wasn't me. I tried very hard, tried the best that I could, but each time I tried to wake up, the stronger sleep grabed hold of me and pulled.

So now you must be wondering, why the heck couldn't I get my lazy ass out of bed?! Well dear mama and papa, I was studying late to get all the crap in my head! I know I missed the exam, but at least you know that I tried. Know that I did the best I could, to get that honorary grade inside.

Don't blame me for missing out, on the best part of your life. Coz my studying and stressing in the exam, made me miss out on the best part of MY life.

Now Mummy and Daddy, it's as plain as you can see. The news I just told you, was as shocking as I expected it to be. But like I said I hope you hold up, coz there's more coming to this news. Oh no, don't go worrin' now, I mean after what I told you, how else bad could it get in your shoes?

See dearest Mums and Pops, I love you deep down inside, and I would never do anything, to make you break down and cry. The news I just told you, as simple as can be, was a little prank I made up, to take away the stressed all locked up inside of me!

WELL... I went for the exams, I even made it on time. I tried the best I could, to achieve the honorary grade tonight.

So don't you go on worrin', coz there's nothing to worry you see. I'll make it through this battle, and show you that I can be all I can be!

Love,
Grace

p/s: my exam was really horrible today...that's a fact!

NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-11-06T13:38:00.000+11:00

this is dumb, saturday i added in my most favourite blog on "the reality of life" AND ITS GONE!!!! dumbass..
anyway Saturday (4/11/2006) is the first day i took part in a rally/protest against global warming. yes i wanted that statement printed in my blog for memory sake. ok hopefully it stays here now...
as for my missing blog entry...where did u go to honey.......................................................???

just a quick note

2006-11-01T22:34:00.000+11:00

yes yes a reflection on my life is suppose to be here somewhere right now (esp since the last day of school and of my undergrad life is like OVER!!!) but sorry saboteur has been pulling me away deep into his lustrous arms of laziness. I WILL get it done soon though, probably after the exams. so to whoever is reading, apologies but my life will be a mystery for now, to all who's studying for exams just think, life could be a lot worst haha yea that's true ok! well we'll all make it somehow. so catch up soon and cya folks soon! take care everyone :)

Oh the PAIN!!!!!

2006-10-14T18:59:00.000+10:00

Hi. ok...I guess it has been a long time, but what else could I have done?...I could say that I have been drowned with tons of work, but that would be a half lie cos I was just mainly clearing up on the assigments and yea took a break from IT ALL. So...I shall say...my saboteur got to the better of me :) yea that explains it all. If you can't find a reason in life, blame it on your psychological self. These days it's no use blaming it on your genes and up-bringing cos that never works, people always seem to find a way round it or they don't believe you from the start. BUT, going mentally insane...now that's something we all got to watch out for.

So I went swimming yesterday yes...after like years of I don't know what kind of holiday my body was on...but it was good. Bad side effects - MUSCLE ACH!!! It hurts like hell I tell you. Actually, hell would be a lot worst, but I'd rather be in a better position now. Okok so I haven't been exercising bla bla bla yes yes Grace has been out-right lazy and now she's complaining. OK! I've heard it all...so once again...I'm going to blame it on....SABOTEUR!!! yea you know, I TRIED my best to get fit but that little saboteur was always telling me otherwise and complementing on my good looks. Now it's more like "good looks" with the inverted commas. It's so hard to regect what my saboteur says when she's just simply so convincing and CUTE! (ie refer to the pic below in previous posts) yes yes she's cute. haha

Well, I hope my outer self can keep up with this exercising, it's about time my saboteur took a holiday! But I doubt it ever wants to leave me alone. Oh well............................... Freud along with Gottfredson and Hirschi said people's self were determined by the age of 8. Let's see...at 8 I was overweight...BLAST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This CANNOT go on! I will take it as by the age of 8 my saboteur was born (yes cos of the 8 year age gap we can see how immature my saboteur is!) haha!

So I guess this is it...we'll see who will win. It's the battle of Grace versus her saboteur. Results out in 2 months time! Till then! TA!

Oreo Heaven

2006-10-01T10:58:00.000+10:00

Saturday (30/9/2006)
Dayi: Baby!!! I bought you a box of oreo cookies.

Sunday (1/10/2006)
Grace: I'm hungry!!!
Dayi: You can eat the oreo cookies I bought for you.
Grace: Oh ya! I forgot. Hmm....I had some last night, but where are the rest?
Dayi (in a very soft voice): The rest went to heaven...

Profile of a Criminal

2006-09-18T04:49:00.000+10:00

Name: Saboteur

Age: Always young and youthful

Description: Fuzzy, looks cute, soft and huggable

Weapons: The ability to seduce Grace to the lazy lifestyle

BE WARNED! THIS CRIMINAL HAS ESCAPED. IT IS VERY VERY DEADLY AND CAN EASILY GRASP YOUR ATTENTION AND SOON YOU WILL BE IN A DAZE AND YOU WILL NEVER HAVE MOTIVATION TO DO ANY WORK AGAIN! BEWARE!!!

2006-09-16T15:25:00.000+10:00

Just the two of us...smooOOOooochin' away

it's all thanks to U!

2006-09-14T20:20:00.000+10:00

Grace:

I am the BEST procrestinator, aiming high for all my "goals" and actually keeping to them. I have never felt such a great sense of "achievement". I am so proud. I am so happy. And it's all thanks to you my little saboteur.

Grace's Little Saboteur:
Why...Thank you my dear.

Grace:
BLAST YOU!!!

Irony of Life

2006-09-10T01:16:00.000+10:00

Situation A:

Those who can help you will never help you.

Situation B:

Those who cannot help you are always willing to give you a helping hand.

your fate is what YOU make of it

2006-09-09T21:22:00.000+10:00

in the world today no one will walk down that dark valley with you, no one will be in that very same boat as you, no one will fight that battle with you. each man, woman and child fights for their ownself. they each stand alone on their path, no one around them, but only themselves. they fend for themselves, fight for themselves, kill for themselves...you see, the world doesn't care if you're alone or not, and no one will. it's either you fight on your own and make the best of it, or you die, and in that case it could be a terrible terrible death. but it might be happiness you feel when you go, cos in the first place no one remembered you, when you left no one thought of you, and when you just became a shadow in people's lives, no one even saw you. in this world today we're all on our own, DON'T expect anyone to be there for you at the finish line, or to help give u that boost and cheer along the way, cos in this world today all those loud voices of encouragement have just become whispers...

The HUGE "Age" Gap

2006-09-07T23:34:00.000+10:00

Grace's Saboteur:

ARGH!!!!! Grace is giving me so much pain! Especially with this mind-boggling, heart-piercing, pain and torture of a lab report PLUS 2 big and upcoming essays!!!! What is wrong with her! I can understand how she might find Human Psychophysiology ever so interesting, but why in the freeking world would she wanna learn something like that? I mean you don't have to pay thousands of dollars just to understand your body better. She should have just made an appointment with me to catch up! So much for dumping me to one side and doing that focus session thing with her books, like how entertaining can they get, not like they are even alive. Look at me! I breathe, I eat, I talk (and even though u can't hear me that much believe me I've got a loud voice)... yea so why would she prefer something non-living to something actually ALIVE!.

And lets not even go to the bit where she sobs and frustrates over hmmm nothing?!! Like I don't mind her getting angry over me cos I know no one's perfect and if she's jealous over my relaxing lifestyle I don't blame her for it. But getting all angry and mad just cos she's reading a couple of sentences over and over again, now that's wierd. She should start trying to contact me. HELLO! GRACE I AM HERE!!! Listen me out girl!..

Sigh, people these days...just don't know what's going on with this world man!

2006-09-07T15:50:00.000+10:00

Can My Life Get Any Worse Right Now???!!!...

what a waste....correct me if i'm wrong

2006-09-07T00:29:00.000+10:00

ok so i walked up to this girl, sat next to her, asked her to take some notes for me for a help session for school and email to me. yea she was nice bout it all, got my contact. but ive not heard from her!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! doesn't mean we're 2 total strangers gives her the reason to ignore me. like hello! im in desperate need of help (btw i couldn't attend myself coz i had work incase ure blaming me for skipping the class). yea well if i do bump into her during lectures i'll make sure my inner self brings itself out and gives her the upside down grin and "smiling" forehead.

Another Season Passing Through

2006-09-05T01:12:00.000+10:00

I MISS WINTER...

Tribute

2006-09-05T01:09:00.000+10:00

Steve Irwin...

Thanks for a whole different perspective to wildlife. You will be dearly missed.

2006-09-05T00:42:00.000+10:00

Grace's Parents: you MUST

Grace's Sister: you CAN

Grace's Friends: you WILL

Grace's Boyfriend: even if you don't i still love you...

Grace: i WANT

Grace's Saboteur: AIYA....Nevermind lar..........

-you know how they always say "trust your inner instincts"?... NEVER do that-

Battle Day 1

2006-09-05T00:24:00.000+10:00

*phew* made it through another hectic day, or rather the first of the many. let's recap, gota test this week...next week a lab report...the week after 2 major essays...2 weeks after one major essay...a month after one major essay, take home exams and sit in exams!!! BAH!!!!! BUT! graduation will be soon after and that means...THIS IS ALL OVER!!! whooo hoooo!!! i can finally sell my books and actually "benefit" from education, monetarily. haha

well i guess i gotta stay focused, seems pretty hard with the little saboteur always popping by to visit me. still, i got to learn to stick to plans. yes STICK! to my plans...not slide not stalk not stand not stare...its stick. that's sure gonna be one new lesson i'll be learning each day of my life for the rest of my life haha, rest of my academic life at least. and ive got to learn ignorance. yes yes ignorance is a BLISS, when u're ignoring ur little saboteur. it might not be a very nice thing to do, but it's not like saboteur is "someone" anyway. it will just be me ignoring me. now that can't be very hurtful can it? well i guess it could to an extent if i would consider myself very self loving...*yish* ok focus.

I WILL MAKE IT!

Tasks

2006-09-03T23:33:00.000+10:00

Grace: Tomorrow I need to...get up, revise my work, go to school, pay attention, revise test material inbetween, take a test and try my best, go home and start on my other assigments.

Grace's Saboteur: Tomorrow I need to...sleep late, scan my notes, skip school and head to the beach, burn my lecture notes, miss the test and give in a medical certificate, head home to have an early night, sleep and catch up with all my fantasies.

------------in a constant state of DILEMMA!!!---------------

It's only a matter of T.I.M.E.

2006-09-03T18:49:00.001+10:00

No no no no NO! This can't possibly be happening. I had plans, I wrote it all down. I did! I really did! Just at the very moment when I'm about to go deep into my work look who comes and tags along with me...the little piece of $^&*^%$###)()!(!(@!!!!!!! saboteur! So much for the hard work. I'm starting to feel the pain. It's so tough I just don't know what to do. Should I write this, should I go with another method...should I go out and lie on the soft grass under the warm sun or go dancing in the rain....NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!! STOP! It's invading in me!!! I can't help it...sigh.

What have I accomplished for the day so far:
1) Breakfast
2) Yawning...
3) Practicing yawning...
4) Read a sentence from my reader
5) Mind took a stroll
6) Yawning
7) Lunch
8) Stretching my mouth
9) Mind went for a holiday!
10) Listened to a lecture
11) Mind retired after ears heard the lecturer's voice
12) Reading notes
13) Eyes got expelled by the nerves
14) Reading notes
15) Yawning...

AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My saboteur is coming ALIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-sign off note: Grace needs help-